I have been physically active in one way or another for almost 20 years. I made a goal when I was younger that I would be so addicted to exercising by the time I got married and became a mom that I would have no choice but to exercise. So I did. I ran, I weight lifted, I did just about everything and loved it.
After getting married and enjoying eating whatever I wanted I put on 15-20 pounds. Then after having my first child I lost it all and then some more. I was able to keep that weight off all of the way through getting pregnant with my second child. After the birth of my first daughter I suffered from postpartum depression and had a very difficult time getting my body to react to any type of exercise. As soon as I started medication I dropped 25 pounds within one month. I kept it off for almost a year, put it back on, did a 1000 calorie diet for a month, lost it all and kept it off for a while, then put it on again. So, the story of my life- take it off, put it on.
So 3 children later (3 in all) I feel like I am constantly focused on my weight, my strength, my endurance. Honestly, if I ever beat this weight issue I don't know what I'll do. I'll have nothing to do! It has been a focus of my life and choices for so many years now. Daily I am trying and failing. But I'm tired of failing. I'm tired of being able to do anything physical that I put my mind to but then counteracting that by what I eat.
I'm ready to succeed. I deserve to succeed. I deserve to be skinnier and to not worry that my shoulders are too round or that my waist is too thick or my back too fat. I want to be able to look like the person who achieves the physical goals that I have done.
I ran in the Miami to Key West Florida Ragnar in January. This was a big eye opener to me. Everyone who ran this was in shape~really in shape. I thought I was strong. But I did horribly. I averaged 12 minute miles. My mind got the best of me. I just didn't do what I am capable of. So I have made a new goal: I am going to run in the Washington D.C. Ragnar Relay on September 24-25 2011. I am going to be the team captain. And I am going to perform at my best. From here on out I am getting there- to my best.
I am learning how to eat correctly. Right now I am eating Heathly Choice meals to help lower my calorie intake, shrink my stomach and break my addiction to sugar. About mid to late March I will do my 1st quarter cleanse (The Master Cleanse).
Hopefully that will be the beginning to getting my weight under control. I am at 169 right now. I'd like to be in the 150's by the beginning of April for the Palmetto 200 Relay Race.
I am in my 4th week of INSANITY. I get up everymorning at 5:30 and do whatever the days workout calls for. Today I did Pure Cardio and then went and ran 2 miles with my new Garmin 405 CX. My goal is to be able to do workouts like this. I need to run a lot to get better at running. I'm trying to build up my endurance and my speed.
After I finish INSANITY I am going to balance running with weight training and plyometrics. I am really going to focus on anything that will help me increase my ability to run faster over longer periods of time.
During the summer I am going to add on dual workouts. One in the morning and one at night. There will be a lot of hill training to build up my legs.
I have a plan. The rest that will follow this post will be how I am doing. How is my eating? How is my running? My successes and my failures. I know I'm not the only one who struggles with things like this. I hope as well as helping myself, that I will help someone else.
The best of luck to all of us!
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